I’ve noticed before how my intentions with my own dreams often strike back in clever ways.
For instance, when I was readily working with Calea Zacatechichi, it’s powers alluded me, even mocked me. I would have dreams about taking dream herbs instead of having lucid dreams or crazy vivid dreams! Ha! Oh Calea Z…
Anyhow – I wanted to share a dream today that’s about having a hole in my palm.
This comes from the fact that one of my favorite means of reality testing, and by extension, testing the reality (or lack thereof) in the dream world, is putting my hands through things and putting a finger from my left hand into my right palm, or vice versa. (As I type this out it sounds a lot creepier than it is when I actually do it in a dream, which is that context is like striking gold.)
This is a great method for reality testing because you can do this no matter where you are, in any context, in both the dream world and in waking life.
I had a dream that tied into this method for reality testing, which is both clever and maddening at once. It hints at some kind of intelligence operating within our dreaming minds, unconscious or irrelevant to our intentions.
Here’s what I wrote down in my dream journal:
I’ve got this hole in my left hand. It’s not huge, but it’s there, and it’s kinda freaking me out. I mean, maybe I should see a doctor about it! Couldn’t it get infected? I look it up online and find some dumbass who posted on Yahoo! Answers something about a hole in his hand, complete with an obviously doctored photo of his hand with a big hole in it.
After this post, the responses included many beautiful pieces of art that were created in the shape of a hand. For instance, ballerinas or dancing figures, that overall are in the shape of a hand.
I realize if I take a picture of my hand, it’s going to be hard to see the hole. The palm side of the hole is larger than the top of my hand, which is sort of black around the edges of the hole.
I realize one thing I can do is shine a laser through it! So I shine a laser through it, putting this large flashlight-like device over the top of my hand, cupping it, and then it comes out in a laser beam from my palm, down towards the bathroom counter. I’m showing N and someone else this, in my bathroom, and they think it’s a magic trick.
It’s not, and it actually seals up the hole mostly, causing it to burn like hell and bleed a bit too.
I added the following commentary about this dream that morning:
Note: Hilarious that I dream of a hole in my hand when everyday i do reality checks counting my fingers, sometimes followed up by imagining a hole in my hand and/or trying to put a finger through my palm.
It’s almost like inside of all our heads, there’s a little shaman dream prankster, ready to push back when we overly get attached to setting a certain intention with a dream – whether it be a dream sign or getting to excited about the idea of using a dream herb to have vivid dreams or lucid dreams.
Why do you think it is that it works like this? What’s going on here when our dreams mock our intentions to work with them?